i type and delete......  i hope i wouldn't hurt others with my word. Change? What s wrong with changing? we know it's hard, i know. experience taught us how to be strong, how to handle things, how to realize we r not living in fantasy. people shoudn't come out with words " u should wear handsocks, stockins" "pls dont wear skinny jeans cover up ur aurat" "u don't deserve a place in heaven if u don't do so" yknow what. u might say that but the truth u don't even know if she wore shorts in the past or she don' t wear scarf in the past or she went to club etc. and now she tried to wear jeans but still the tight one but she started to wear scarf. changing is not about a total drastic change, it's about how u will change urself and make it permanent in ur future. Goodluck in changing for a better things. xoxo

1/2 All Out

Woke up every morning and hoping that the next day would be great would be fantastic. Hoping that people around me could make me happy, and me can cheer myself up with the surrounding. Trying to appreciate those little things as what people said "Just give and take" Words re just to easy to spit out but action? Nahhh, it's hard mayn. Yah give ur best to people and takes every single positive vibes u've got but those bullshit things u've heard u've seen it must be ignored. yknow what i've been wondering all the time, how to make people around us accept us accept the worst part of us and appreciate us? yep, it always cross ma mind i tell yah. Sometimes it's pretty sad when u gave 110% efforts but NONE of them see one. NONE i repeat. Ok. actually not okay at all. the reality u saw is not even a real thing u've seen here. u might see her laughing see her smiling see her making jokes see her happy being surrounded by friends but u don't even noe a thing about her. Just one thing, take care of yourself first.